i don’t think he knows how much i love him. he thinks i’m friend-zoning him, but the truth is i can’t be in a relationship right now. he doesn’t know the depths of heartbreak i’ve been through. he doesn’t know how hard it is for me to trust again. he doesn’t know that i just can’t give him what he wants. i wish he did. i wish that he could just know everything and we can be best friends. cause that’s truly all i need. i need someone i can talk to and who will be there for me. i like waking up next to him and just cuddling, no expectations. it’s nice to know that he’s going to be there for me no matter what. i don’t want him to turn into another heartbreak. the sad part is, i want to be there for him too. i want to be what he wants me to be. it’s just impossible right now. i love him so much and i don’t think i could stand to lose him. if only he’d understand.
